A Court of Disapointment and Clifhangers

A Court of Wings and Ruin. By: Sarah J. Mass

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SUMMARY


Alright, buckle up ladies and gentleman because we have a lot to weather here, no really we are about to go through all four season of the high courts.

Ferye is back in the spring court pretending that everything is fine and happy just as it had been before Amarantha, she is eating, laughing and even painting again, however she is making the spring court a living nightmare. Ianthe tries to pull one over on Feyre telling her and Lucien how she thought they wanted Nesta and Elain to be fey like them, Feyre bits her tongue as does Lucien but she harbors her hate deep down waiting for the perfect moment to strike. While in the spring court the king of Hybern sends his niece(Brannagh) and nephew(Dagdan) who are twins, along with Jurian, to keep Tamlin company while also trying to bring down the wall. Ferye has been causing major problems for Tamlin and Ianthe, she makes Tamlin question Lucien and Feyre’s relationship, all his guards turn against him along with his people. One the last visit to the wall with Lucien, Jurian, Brannagh, and Dagdan, Feyre has decided to return home now that Tamlin’s court is in complete shambles and is ready to fall at any given moment, but along the way she finds Lucien, who then decides to come with Feyre to find Elain.

Feyre is poisoned by faebane so she cannot winnow like she had planned to do instead Lucien winnows them as far as he can but they must now trek through the Autumn Court, Home to Lucien’s family who would much rather see him dead than in their court. After a few days of traveling they are intercepted by Lucien’s brothers, one of whom is Eris(Oh yes the evil man himself, get ready it’s about to get good!) They fight against the brothers and are able to get away from them and they chose to settle in a cave on the mountains that hold the border of the Winter Court, here Feyre tells Lucien about her sister Elain. The next day they enter the Winter Court but are again found by Lucien’s brothers. However Cassian and Azriel arrive and take them to the night court.

Once Rhysand returns to Velaris, after being on the human side of the wall gathering information, him and Feyre reunite with each other and he agrees to take in Lucien but only after all three males threaten his life if he makes any mistakes. Feyre then goes to the house of wind to visit her sisters accompanied by Lucien and Cassian, she find Nesta in the library and discovers something strange and ancient rest inside her sister, she also finds out her and Cassian have been doing nothing but fighting daily. She then visits Elain’s room to find her heartbroken and wanting to return to her human love Graysen as they were to be married in a week.

The Inner Circle decides to host a meeting with all the High Lords of all the courts(yes this includes Tamlin and the Autumn court) to seek help and to band together to fight in this war. They also decided to seek help of a mortal queen, one the other sisters had cursed and sold to a man who adores beautiful women, but she is hidden somewhere on the human side of the wall and after a heated debate about who would go Lucien offers to go on the journey to keep his mind off of Elain, who still rejects his love. Amren is still trying to translate the Book of Breathings, and later begins training Nesta to use the magic she had stolen from the cauldron. While Feyre trains with Cassian to help improve her fighting and Azriel to help show her how to fly.

The meeting then takes place in the Dawn Court as Thesan agreed to. Thesan high lord of Dawn is accompanied by his captain of guard and lover. Helion high lord of Day with a few of his guards, followed by Kallias high lord of Winter and his mate Viviane who is Mor’s best friend. Next to appear is Tarquin high lord of summer with Varian and Cresseida, lastly in comes Beron high lord of Autumn with his wife and sons and right before they call the meeting to start Tamlin comes in by himself. Maybe they can stay civil long enough to prepare for the war that is to come and not kill each other.

Review


My first thoughts reading this book were how and the heck am I going to be able to get through so many pages of Feyre being with Tamlin! I was so hyped for this book I forgot I would have to suffer through that horrible event, but it wasn’t very horrible at all to be honest. I loved everything Feyre was doing to Ianthe and the evil Hybern twins, I was begging her to let Lucian slap Ianthe for what she did to the sisters talking about ” I thought you wanted to make them Fae,” she knows that is total bull. I must say though I think what Feyre did to Tamlin is a little bit wrong okay. I said it. I did, kill me know, but I mean he did it out of love. He feels the love for her that she feels for Rhys now you tell me Feyre would not go through what Tamlin went through to get Rhys back because I think she would. Maybe not as far as using her sisters but I mean everything else he did yes. He thought what he was doing was right and I get that it wasn’t all rainbows and butterflies but he was trying. After a girl you love dies then comes back to life then wants to go back out into danger and is also forced to go see a Evil Night court guy (because that is how the rest of the courts see Rhys) I think I can see where I would try and keep her safe and protected.

I had such a hard time putting this book down throughout the middle of the book. I just wanted to make it to the ending I had so many questions that needed to be answered. There was so much character growth in this book that I just fell in love with everyone all over again. You get to see a new side of the people you thought you knew, secrets are exposed and there is such so much GOD I’m getting excited just thinking about it. The sisters are my favorite part I must admit, at first Nesta I hated she was so ungrateful mistreating my poor Cassian I wanted to smack her around, and poor Elain I just wanted to hug her and tell her everything would be okay, and the one person who she seems to connect with I was shocked at how different someone can act when around another person, Elain literally brings the good out in everyone.

Now this is where it gets ugly because the ending was a let down for me. All my questions I still have no answers to. Like everything this book had built up every single detail that I was so hyped to find out, after reading 707 FREAKING PAGES!! I still got no answers. I was so mad when I finished this book I wanted to scream. The Golden queen, what happens to her? Lucian and Elain? The Humans? The Fae? Tamlin? Just everything about this ending sucked for me! Then at the end we get a spin off book which people are saying will be from the point of view of one of the characters now but we have no for sure yet. So all these things you have rattling around in your head you might never get an answer. I feel like the ending was just not a good one, the book built up so much hype throughout it just to sizzle out in the end.

Another thing Rhys being all Night court primal male turns into Feyre’s lap dog. Like the dark sweet Rhys we fell in love with is gone and it’s just Rhys taking orders from Feyre and love Feyre, I was just so over Rhys and Feyre halfway through the book, It broke my heart a little to say that, The Rhys I fell in love with in the second book the strong alpha male who was like the back bone of everyone and was always protecting his family with his swagger of cockiness is just gone, so get ready for that.

I loved the series, I do I loved that start of this book but the ending it was a big let down. I think that the second book is still the best book out of all three, but this book is worth a read just don’t get all fully hyped about it unless you just like it for the story and the love then yeah you won’t care about the ending but I am invested in this book I sunk the time into loving this book. I grown attached to these characters that I need to know what happens to them I don’t want another cliff hanger and wait another year for a book that might or might not answer the questions that you will be asking yourself if your are also invested into it.

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The Empire of EVERYTHING

Empire of Storms by: Sarah J. Maas


Summary

Aelin, Rowan, Aedion, and Lysandra have traveled to a secret meeting area of Aedion’s, to meet with a few of the Lords of Terrasen who have decided that Aelin’s court is a disgrace and will not accept her as their queen and if she tries it will be an act of war. Shortly after Rowan is sent to get Dorian from Rifthold where the witches are attacking.  Dorian is found by Rowan in one piece along with Manon who is letting them escape. Once back at Morath Asterin is sentenced to death for Manon’s mistakes but Manon betrays her clan and attacks her grandmother then flies away

Rowan and Dorian meet up with Rolfe who has Gavriel and Fenris with him and they explain they were sent by Maeve to kill Lorcan and she is also sailing to Ellywe. Aelin arrives later, in full swagger mode, Rolfe tells the Fae to kill her to get in his good graces. She tells him if he joins her army she will make him Lord of the pirates. A warning bell sounds. Rolfe looks at the maps on his hands, showing the Valg are approaching. He finally agrees to Aelin’s plan. When  the battle is over and the group is assembled together, Elena appears to them. She tells them the lock is in the center of a temple in a marsh. They take off on a ship, headed for the marsh. They see Manon riding toward them on Abraxos. She is unconscious and falls off the wyvern and into the sea.

Elide and Lorcan join forces both hoping to find information on Aelin and Morath. They  are performing now, fortune telling and sword play. Lorcan’s display is much more popular. They both realize they are attracted to the other.Demons attack their camp looking for Elide. They tell Lorcan her real name. He tells the demon she’s not there. He confronts Elide after the fight is over. They share some truths about their backgrounds. Something triggers Lorcan, and he examines the amulet Aelin gave him. He realizes it’s a fake and roars in anger. He steers the ship towards Ellywe, where they finally find them, in the Marsh.

Aelin opens the chest, inside an ancient mirrors with the eye of Elena on the corner. The Fae males carry the mirror between them. Everyone is exhausted. When they return to the coast, they see 100 ships, Melisande’s fleet. Soldiers are already on shore. Aelin surprises everyone by striding directly toward them. The leader of the troops is Ansel of Briarcliff, who Aelin met years ago in the desert. Ansel brought these ships and warriors at Aelin’s request to repay the life debt she owes her. They will all sail north tomorrow to protect Terrasen. Ansel says it’s Maeve, not Erawan, who had been setting the fires, trying to make it look like it’s Aelin. Another armada is headed toward them, It’s Maeve. They know she will wait for daylight to ask for Aelin’s surrender so everyone can witness it.  After Aelin is asleep, Rowan flies to many of Maeve’s ships one by one to make a request of his cousins aboard. They will each consider it.

Dorian takes Aelin and Manon down to the mirror stowed below deck to show them something. He thinks Deanna’s riddle about it suggests that Aelin and Manon can use it to see the future, and determine how to defeat Maeve, and use the keys. The two join hands, press them to the mirror, and disappear. Aedion is furious, Rowan says they’ll continue to ready for battle. Aelin and Manon are in the past, seeing Gavin and Elena. They say that Malla’s bloodline must bleed again and use Malla’s gifts to forge the lock again, with Elena leading them. They will have to give every drop of their life force to do it, to send them home and eternally seal the lock between the worlds.

The battle ensues. Lysandra fights in her modified sea dragon form, attacking the ships marked by Rowan. Lorcan notices Maeve isn’t among her ships. He sees her ashore, near where he left Elide.

To find out what happens next you will need to read the book 😉

 

Review


 

Sarah J. Maas is once again put on a pedestal for all to look at as she gives us this book that is a masterpiece. I loved reading this book every time I open it I just get so excited knowing everything that is about to go down and I seem to find something new every time. Not only do we get the full Celaena swagger that we have grown to love we also get, sweet Dorian, Moody Lysandra and Aedion, the lovely Elide, and of course so much more. This book has taken all the other books and has brought them all together into one great overwhelming event that will have you thinking how can it get any better.

The characters in this book are some that I have grown so attached to in such a short time, Lysandra was just brought to us in the last book and yet I find her to be a very key apart in holding the group together. She seems to be the backbone and the go between when things get rough between Aedion and Aelin, she seems to always know what to do or say to make Aedion feel better about himself or just be there for him. Aedion seems still a little lost to me like he wants to be Aelin’s right hand but she still keeps him at a distance and Lysandra seems to fill that hole never letting him second guess his worth. Elide! God Elide I think she is my most favorite character in this entire book, this girl has been through so much pain and heartbreak, but yet she still has the heart to go out and trust people and find hope in the world, she hunts for a queen who she doesn’t even know is alive she is just going off rumors but yet she still lets herself believe fully that there is no chance she is dead. She even find good in Lorcan which I feel for also he goes out of his way to help Elide and starts to fall for her. He make her TAMPONS for god sacks like what man would do that. He is in so deep and he doesn’t even notice but when she tells him she hates him I can only imagine the pain he must feel. The other characters in this book seem to all grow as a person each and everyone not a single one of them is static and boring, they all have ever changing developments that just make us fall in love with them more.

The plot of this book is on point all the time we never stray from the end goal  While reading I felt like I was watching a movie not just reading a book I was so sucked into the action when Lys got hurt and Aedion was there for her I felt it my heart sink and the sadness seep in when he thought she was dead, or the fight between Manon and her grandmother I wanted so bad for Manon to put her nails through her face. God I really hate that old woman. You just get so invested when you read this book its like im actually in the book with them.

The ending was so Sarah J. Maas and we are left with the cliffhanger of all cliffhangers like I cannot wait till Tower of Dawn! I think I want this book more than I wanted A court of Wings and Ruin.

This book keeps you in it and on the edge of your seat dying for the next book to come out I recommend this book, if you liked the rest of this series then you are going to LOVE this book.

The Mask

The light flickers in the distance as the snow danced to the song of the howling wind and the restless trees, the sky was painted in the darkest blue and gray as the moon was fighting to be seen from behind the fortress of clouds that seemed to be unmoving. The wind and snow had already bitten all the warmth from Zuri’s face and was starting to cut through the cotton gloves that she was now cursing because she had chosen the cute cotton and lace over the fur and leather that would have kept her hands warm, why did she always fall for appearance first when it came to making decisions, it was one of her major flaws and she knew it was but she could never seem to overcome this ever losing battle. She could not think about that now she had come all this way for one reason and she could not let herself get cold feet now, she let a small chuckle escape through her shallow and labored breathing due to the fact that she really could not afford to get cold feet because she still had a little more walking to do and at this time of night if she stopped to rest and fell asleep she would surely freeze to death before anyone came close to finding her body when the sun would eventually shower the world with warmth once again.

The Mask she wore was one that nobody else have ever seen or had ever even known about, she had kept it her secret for so long she was beginning to lose herself, her true self. She knew she would have to do this even if she would lose the one person who had meant the world to her, he was the reason she was out here dragging herself through this frozen hell, ” So stupid” she kept repeating the words to herself, this whole idea, she should have just took some sleeping pills and forced herself to fall asleep so just for a few hours she could stop existing, it was all getting too far out of hand she could no longer handle this torture, waking up every morning to a new face. She forgot what it was like to look at her own face did she have freckles or not? What color were her eyes? What did her hair look like? These were the questions she would ask herself every night when she would lay awake staring at the ceiling.

The Mask was something she had just stumbled across at a flea market in a town down by the coast where her grandmother had lived, her grandmother had always warned her about finding things down by the coast she always told her scary stories about the ghost and spirits that haunted the wharf. She would tell her stories of a women who used to seduce men into her home and drink their blood to stay young and when their wives would come looking she would cast a spell on them so they would kill themselves in some of the most painful of ways. She used to love to listen to these stories when she was younger but the older she got the more she thought her grandmother was starting to lose her marbles.

She thought the Mask was so beautiful and mysterious  it was painted black as charcoal with matching feathers around the temples creating a cat eye effect, black lace with glitter was sewn onto the mask with swirls and jewels covering spots where the lace met together, around the eyes black and silver interlocked in a dance that made you look directly into them and the black satin ribbon that was used to tie the mask to you, it was so enticing like it was calling to her promising her that magical things would happen if she did and so she bought the stupid thing.

She had forgotten all about it until the day her grandmother died and she went back to her house to collect some of her stuff from the room she had when she stayed there, she remembered buying it and had never tried it on and once she did she noticed it the change her hair shifted to the color of black itself it was almost purple in certain light, her eyes were blue and gray almost white in a strange way, her skin was pale which she grew tired of due to everyone thinking she was ill all the time, but her lips were always a crimson red no matter how hard she tried to tone them down they always returned to that red and her eyes were always covered with black eyeliner and mascara with a gray and black eyeshadow to match, she thought she looked like a bit gothic but everyone was always drawn to her it was like her looks were more inviting and seductive rather than dark and scary.

She got bored with the fact that no matter what guy she asked out they all said yes and had done whatever she asked until the day she ran into Raiden who seemed to careless about how she looked or what she wanted, they worked together on a book editing project for one of her close friends but her boss had made Raiden tag along and she soon found him to be the worst person in the world until the day they were both going to kill each other, or so she had thought he had back her against the wall of the hotel elevator and she was just about to raise her knee straight into his privates when he crushed his mouth against hers and she lost all of her feeling. It was a kiss that made everything vanish around them, it was a hungry kiss, one that had been building for so long she could not help but let him come back to her room. The next morning he had still been there and told her how crazy she drove him and how much he needed her and surprisingly she felt the same way.

That was why she had to do this she had to tell him the woman that he loved was not her, that the mask she wore was one of lies and once she told him he would find her crazy more and likely but she had to tell him let him see the true her even if she had to wear this mask for the rest of her life and he would never get to see the person she used to be, the one she asked herself about every night she could not lie to him anymore. She was going to tell him and even if he thought she was completely and broke up with her she knew he had the right to know, she would make him see the real her, make him see that she was serious.

 

I think cliffhangers are the best don’t you ❤

 

Come back tomorrow for the rest of the story!

 

The True soul of a monster: part 2

The sea was cold and black just like everything else in her life, dull and cold, she refused to let anything into her life even her sister, she cared for her dearly yes but she could not love her something broke inside her the day her parents died. They had all been so happy and carefree for most of their lives, mother who would do nothing all day besides knit and read books before the fireplace, father who would manage his business from his office at home. Sweet sister and her playing on the rug in the living room while Copper, the stray dog who found its way into the house and their family, lay curled up next to them. Everything was perfect until that winter night, the snow storm was the worst they have ever had, they lived so far away from town that mother and father day to travel by horse to get them supplies to last until the snow would melt. She remembered being curled up in front of the fireplace with her sister shivering with copper in the middle of them sharing his warm golden fur with them. Mother and father had left early that morning but they still had not come back even after hours of waiting, then night fell and the sun rose the next morning, one of the horses that had carried her parents came back that morning and was frightened they could barely get the poor dear back into the barn.

The horse was covered in scars and claw marks that both of the girls knew all too well, it was the marks of the snow wolves that hunted in this part of the lands, the girls had lost their older brother to the wolves two years ago she remembers the grim look on father’s face as he walked back to the house with brothers gun and the scream that came from mother followed by sobs is something that haunted her dreams even now. Their neighbor had come to see then a day or two later, he had mother’s purse slung across the back of his horse’s saddle. That was when she felt it the drift in her soul, the breaking in her chest, she could not cry or scream, or move she just shut down. Her sister sobbed into her hands as Clint handed over the bag to her with a look on his face that told us exactly what we both had already knew.

Clint helped both of them taking on the role of their lost uncle, while sister became a copy of mother always telling her what to do and how and when, with no room for argument. Which did not bother her as much as she thought it would, no her and sister were always close and sister would always tell her what to do any ways.

She was snapped back into her body as the laughing filled her head once more. Oh my sweet darling, do you not like what you see. No one ever does my dear, this is you underneath that pretty face and human flesh you are as much a monster as me. You can not escape me, you cannot run from me.

She realized that the voice in her head was right, she could not run or fight. She was this monster, this horrible disgusting thing that stood before her, was her.  The empty chest, the bloody claws, the hollow eyes, everything, it was all her and the way she chose to live her life. She thought she was going to be sick, how could she be this thing, how could she fall so deep into despair.

Sister, I know that you are scared to let someone near you, but it is okay, because no matter how scared you are to love someone, I will just have to love you twice as hard. You can push me away and fight me tooth and claw, but I will always be here right beside you, I will hold on to you no matter what, you may not be my child by birth but after raising you for so long, you are mine dear sister and I will not let you push me away. 

That was voice the one that she knew far too well filled her head, the voice that was sweet as honeysuckle and soft as a cloud, it was a voice of pure love. Her sister’s voice filled her head and the image of her being pinned down by her sister after they had been fighting about why she refused to love anyone even charming Rayden, who day after day still stood by her side even if he knew how broken she was. Her sister screamed at her to understand that she was loved even if she refused to love anyone else.

She felt it, the hot tears that spilled from her eyes and dripped into the blackness before her. She was this heartless monster but yet they still love her. They both still fought for her, trying to bring her into the light and out of this darkness that surrounded her. Maybe this is how everyone truly saw her and she was just now seeing it herself, but if they could love her even in this disgusting, broken form, then just maybe.

“I am not afraid of you. I know that you are me, just as I am you. I might be terrified of you but I know that you are just as terrified of me. For I am the thing of your nightmares, you refuse to love because you are scared of losing love, therefore you have no heart but I do. You hollow out your eyes so you can only see the black in life, but I see everything, all the colors that make you wither away to your hole of black. Your claws drip with blood from all the fighting you do to keep others away, but I let them in, I crave their touch even if I do not want it, I need to feel their love even if I hate it. That dagger on your tail is your way of dealing with your problems by slicing through them so they can no longer exist. I hold these daggers to defend myself so that no one else may hurt me, I do not slice through my problems I run from them I run from everything that crosses me. I am your nightmare just as you are mine.”

You sweet darling doe are the first to ever except my form. You are the first to stare at your true self and not crumble from the fear and disgust that is truly you. So now I just have one question for you. What will you do now? Will you continue to run from your fears? Will you keep pushing others away? Will you ever learn to love? Will you truly become me? Or, will you fight? Will you try to change your ways and become something more than this, something more than me?

She opened her eyes to see the beast that stood before her once again and stared at that one blue eye, and seen the tears sliding down its face, this beast that she had created did not ask to be made this way. It did not ask to be turned into this demon, it was her fault that she was destroying herself. She walked toward the beast slowly with every shaking step echoing off the walls of the cave. She touched the leather skin that made her stomach flip and roll inside her, she wiped away the tears that slid from the eye so much like her mother’s. 

“I will change for the both of us. I will fix this brokenness that resides in both of us if you just let me have that stone. I. . . I just want to save my sister. . . please she is the only thing I have left in this world.” The beast before her stood tall and straighten so it now towered over her.

My darling you are already changing. You came here to face me. You did not run from your fears. You put the love you feel for your sister before yourself. You tried not to love but yet you have my dear. I will let you take the stone if you keep your promise to change, but not for me but for yourself.

“I promise. . . I promise to try.” The beast raised a claw to wipe away the tears that slid down her face, she tried not to flinch as the touch of the cold metal claw. Then the beast spoke softly into her mind once more as it handed her the stone of life that would save her sister’s life.

You are bound by the bond of promise to change for better, for not only me but for yourself. I look forward to seeing you change and maybe you could stop by again, if the fear does not consume you. If you break your bond to me I will find you and your sister I will take back the life that I so freely gave to you my darling. 

“Yes, I will keep my bond” She took one last look into the eye of her mother and turned to what she assumed was the door of the cave then the two spirit’s that danced before her, leading the way back to home.

I wish you the best on your journey to a life that will make you happy and fill your soul with hope my darling.

She turned to take one last look into the cave but there was nothing there and she could now see the cave in the light as she turned and found the cave entrance to be shimmering in the bright light of the moon. the cave being no deeper than a closest in her home. She would have thought it all a dream if it were not for the purple rock that laid in her hand but there was something else as she looked at her wrist she seen a small black heart, like a tattoo was just place upon her. She rubbed the mark and yet it still remained. Then like a whisper being carried on the wind she felt the slightest tingle in her right ear as the words filled her mind once more

This is our deal and the heart reminds you not to forget. My darling I will be seeing you again. Always watching you. You must remember the deal we have made fore I would hate to take the one thing you love from you, but hear me when I say that I will without hesitation. She sucked the night air into her lungs and ran for their house.

Once she made it to the golden warm glow of the cabin lights she could see copper waiting in the window patiently as if he had never moved from the spot since she left. Just like a mother hen she thought as she slung the door open and fell to her knees on the floor before her sister that was shaking so uncontrollably, she was freezing from the inside but the she was drenched in sweat burning up on the outside.

She pressed the stone to her sister’s heart and spoke softly like her sister always had to her.

“Emily, I am so sorry. I have always pushed you away and pushed away anyone you tired to love. I . . .  I just need you to come back. I love you Emily. . .  I really do love you. So please come back to me. I need you to be here with me.”

She tried to hold back the tears that now flowed down her face and choked back the sobs as she kept waiting for something to happen, anything to happen. She laid her head down on her sisters folded hand and cried into the covers that laid upon Emily. She was giving up, she knew this could not work, this was a stupid idea all along. It was then that the bright purple light filled the cabin as the warm blast waved through her, Copper was there at her side barking demanding whatever threat was there to leave them alone, but as soon as it happened it was gone. The light was sucked away into her sister as she watched the purple glow settle beneath the golden skin of her sister that was just white and pale as a ghost.

She breathing flattened out, the shaking slowly stopped and the sweat that soaked every inch of her skin was gone. She stared down at her sister and Copper was sniffing around Emily as if trying to find that purple light again. Emily’s eyes fluttered open those green eyes flecked with golden spots as they searched the room around her until they landed on her face.

“Elya? What happened? Why are we. . .?

“Emily! I love you. I love you so much Emily. I do. Please do not ever leave me again please!”

She cried into her sister’s arms as the warm soft touch of Emily’s love warped itself around her and held her tightly and kissed the top of her head.

“I always knew you did my little Elya all you had to do was try”

 

 

Well I finished it finally. Sorry I have been away for so long it has been a long couple of months with moving houses and family happening. Just crazy but I am back now and I will try to keep posting one story a day. So keep a lookout for tomorrow’s story!

 

The true soul of a monster

She had made it to the place where the many others that came before her had stood and lost themselves in the black madness that was practically trying to claw it way out of that gave and into her mind. Come my darling little doe and see for yourself why those who speak my name tremble in fear. She knew that voice would be one of silk but she was not ready for the smooth husky tone that filled her ears like the call of a siren and the scent of lavender and jasmine mixed with the smell of firewood on a snowy night filled her nose. She shuddered at the sound and smell that took over all her other senses. I know why you came my darling. I know what you wish to take from me. Just know that no one has ever walked away from here alive or at least with their minds still intact. 

She scoffed at the arrogance that radiated from within the cave from the voice that spoke not from inside the cave but from inside her head. It did not matter to her she had to do this she had to face this monster that lurked within the cave for the sake of her sister who was lying on the cot at their tiny home fighting off the fever that was so fiercely claiming every part of her body and would soon claim her life, she needed the stone that lay within the cave what could heal anything or bring back loved ones, it was why so many people sought out this cave but none have ever been known to take the stone.

Come now darling doe I grow tired of waiting do you wish to take the stone or not! She would take that stone or die trying no matter what without her sister that one who had raised her all those years after their mother and father had passed away she would do this for her to repay her, for if her sister died she would have no reason to live. She braced her hands on the two daggers that were buckled to both sides of her hips as she slowly pulled them free and gripped the golden hilts so tight her finger turned white. She whispered a small prayer up to the mother above as she stalked into the cave, she was not scared of the death that lurked before her, as it welcomed her with open arms into the black abyss, no, she was most frightened of the afterlife if she were to end up damned for eternity or if she would find that peaceful bliss of nothingness and just be done with everything no longer existing.

Silly little girl you think those tiny blades can hurt me, you must be far more foolish than any other mortal that has come here to try and take the stone yet. 

“I do not care what you think about be demon, I will retrieve that stone and I will leave her with my life and save my sister.”  She snarled into the darkness

There was no light in the cave nor was there darkness it was just black. The color black it’s self is what lie before her and she glided both her blades across the walls until she had to choose left or right. She chose to stick to the left due to the fact that her right were her stronger fighting hand. She felt the presence then of death itself breathing down her neck, she felt the shiver shoot down her back could hear nothing but her beating heart pounding in her ears at the silence. So tell me girl do I frighten you yet. Do you realize you stand before a god were as you are nothing more than a bug waiting to be squashed. 

” You do not scare me. I am my own fear. I am the only person who can decided whether I live or die. Not you.” She tried to sound certain and unafraid but her voice had failed her as she cracked at the end.

She felt the laughter ripple around her as it filled her mind and the air around her like a damn of water had just exploded and was now pouring out to drown out everything in its path. So loud, the noise that filled her ears as the ringing filled her head then the blue light sparked to life. It floated around like a spirit in the night dancing on the wind that carried it. She lost the power to breath as she spotted the claw of black that was inches away from her its talons dripping with blood of a crimson red. The smell of iron and decaying flesh slammed into her noise she could not stop the heaving that started as she emptied the contents of her stomach all over the cave floor. Another blue spirit appeared and she seen the tail that was shaped like a dagger but it was bent at a weird angle like someone had broken it.

The two spirits danced around snaking their way up the beast body that stood a few couple of feet from her. Its fur was in clumps and patches and what wasn’t covered in fur was black and looked to be made like leather covered in scars and cuts. The monster’s chest was something out of a comic book or a nightmare it was a skeleton hollow and empty she could see straight through to the red unskin of the back the blue and purple vessels that did not pulse of beat nothing moved inside this monster. It was like its chest was a cage a prison it kept you in until you slowly died from only the mother knows what. She tried to rip her eyes away from the beast before she could see its head but it was too late. She could not look away it was like she was frozen in fear as the spirits danced high above her head showing her the face of the enemy she would die to tonight.

Its face was half fur and half leather on one side the face had a smile cut and stitched into a smile while the other half bared razor sharp teeth that were just piled in side its mouth like it all just came in at once. One eye held nothing but blackness and death but the other was of sky blue filled with what looked like sadness and regrets. She started into that one eye ignoring the blood that dripped from the black eye and the smile made of shards of razors, and the horns on top the demon’s head that were spiraled and bent at wrong angles, the ears that were missing parts. She started into that eye of sky blue and felt the crushing weight that hit her as she knew the color and the way that eye looked.

That eye was just like the pair her mother had the sky blue color that was as bright and beautiful as the summer sun on a hot day shredding away the chill of the spring and winter and the rain that covered the ground spreading joy and life throughout the land. She knew that eye because she stared into that eye every single day of her life. She felt it then the slip into madness and darkness that pulled her under in the sea of black. She looked at that smile again that was forced upon the beast just as she forced herself to smile every day since her parents death. The eye that was nothing but blackness were the eyes she stared out of every day not seeing the beauty that was lying around her. The flowers that her sister would always tend. The smile of the boy that she had yet to tell how she truly felt about him. The sky that she would never see again. Her eyes drifted to the chest that was hollow and held nothing inside, it was her chest where she no longer let her heart love she had casted everything out and would not let anything into her heart again nothing would make her feel that pain of losing a loved on again. The claws that dripped with blood were her own claws that she used to shred anything or anyone who tried to get near her.

This beast, this monster before her, the thing that was going to end her life was herself. She could not think or breathe, the screaming in her head had gone silent everything around her faded away into blackness as she once again was floating in that sea of nothingness.

 

I will finish this story in a second part until then stay tuned and check out some of the other post!